"God is bigger then the boogie man...." -Jr. Asparagus

This past weekend we celebrated baby girls 3rd birthday! For us it felt like celebrating her 1st birthday! Her bio mom never let us around. The first three years of her life we may have seen her a few times; even then she was so scared of the word around her and was so socially deprived that she was antisocial. The lifelessness and fear that you could see in her eyes pained me so deeply. No matter how hard I tried to fight for them no one listened. I knew she was suffering along with her three other siblings but I was powerless to do anything. For years and years I have wept over these children and the earthly hell they suffered at the hands of the two people who should protect them the most, their bio parents. At her birthday dinner there was a great grandma, one set of grandparents, two great aunts, aunt, siblings and us. As I watched the family celebrate with her I quietly begged God to please not let this end. Please let these babies be able to heal and to have a chance at a "normal" life. Baby girl has such a zest for life now! She is so spunky, energetic and out going! She has Jesus in her heart and it is intoxicating to watch her thrive and love the world around her! Not only is her body healing and growing physically her heart and fears are mending too!

With visitation being reinstated soon I can not help but fight my inner realist and pessimist that they are going to be reunited with their bio mom. As I fight my natural instincts I am reminded of a silly song from veggie tales(the songs in these videos haunt my dream;):

"God is bigger then the boogie man, He's bigger then Godzilla or the monsters on TV! OH, God is bigger then the boogie man and He's watching out for you and me!"

Even better then the wise words from a cartoon veggie I am reminded of Psalms 56:11 In God I trust; I shall not be afraid. What can man do to me?(or these kids) AND Psalms 20:4 May He give you your heart's desire and fulfill your plans!"

All of the above reminds me that Yes, God does in fact have the kid's best interest at heart even when I doubt. If the kids are thrown back into the lions den with her I need to trust that the work that is being instilled in them now will be a life raft for them later. I need to give my desires to the Lord, trust that He will grant them and be thankful for whatever the outcome may be! I just can not fathom how anyone can survive in this world without Jesus Christ. For me without His saving grace this life would just not be worth living.